Yesterday was one of those days. One of those times when you step back, you look at your current self and your dream and you think, “How on Earth will I ever get there?”
You start comparing yourself to those you admire – and friends, that’s a slippery slope laced with fear and unmet expectations.
Yesterday, I found myself looking at my blog stats and seriously doubting my ability to reach my goal – I let the fear of failing overwhelm me and open the door to the deeper fear – that of succeeding.
What if I do grow this platform, connect with you, and then mess up? What if I say or write something wrong? What if I get there, and there is not so nice?
Fear. All real and valid fears, but all inconsequential when it comes to this: If I gave up now, if I stopped here – right where I’m at – would I be happy? Could this sustain me and be the end all-be all of the dream?
Simple answer: no.
Giving up would not help my fears, but confirm them. Giving up, stopping, even settling, would feed the deeper lie within me – the lie that tells me I cannot do this, that my story does not matter, that my dreams are destined to be just out of reach.
Yesterday, I wallowed in my fear, and I let small setbacks stop me from writing. And you know what? Sometimes that’s ok. Sometimes it’s ok to take a step back and really examine your fears – to dive in deep and feel the emotion – to take a break and a breath; because sometimes, that’s enough to reignite the passion.
Sometimes, when you look right into the face of your fear, you simply see a scared little girl whose own fear keeps her from pursing her dream; and that’s when you see that fear is a necessary step.
Because if we’re not afraid of our dreams, then they’re not big enough.
What fears do you face when pursing your dreams? How can I pray for you – that you can see past the fear and realize the dream?
“Courage is fear that has said its prayers and decided to go forward anyway.” ~ Joyce Meyer, I Dare You: Embrace Life with Passion
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