When I first started seriously considering this God-sized dream of writing, it was more of a “pie in the sky” thought – something nice to dream about, but not really going to happen. And yet, the more I thought about it, the more I started to actually plan for it, and consequently, the more overwhelmed I became.
You see, I started pursuing this dream without changing anything else in my routine. I added to my to-do list without first taking a few items off. I jumped on board all gung-ho and didn’t realize that, in doing so, I might actually be limiting my ability to succeed.
Simply put, I can’t do it all. I can’t make all the cute crafts, sew new clothes for myself, delve deep into new children’s curriculum ideas, seek out amazing flea market finds, craft encouragement tools for Compassion Sponsors, and blog about it everyday while still spending quality time with my family, enjoying my favorite tv shows, and/or having lazy afternoons at home. It just can’t be done.
So, to save my sanity, I’ve got to cut a few things out – which ultimately means that it’s time to reevaluate my priorities. Is vegging out on the couch after work the best use of my time? Is my passion still in children’s church curriculum? Are there ways that I can do the fun things without giving up the down-time that I need to think? No…and Yes.
No, vegging out isn’t the best use of my time – but sometimes its what my mind needs. The key is determining when I need the rest & when I’m looking for an excuse to be lazy.
Similarly, my passion just isn’t in children’s church curriculum anymore. That doesn’t mean that I don’t love working with kids, it just means that I don’t enjoy writing the lessons as much as I used to. And let’s be honest, if my heart’s not in it, can I really expect the quality to be where it needs to be? Didn’t think so – which means, that for now, I’m not going to focus on writing or sharing object lessons, Bible based activities, or Awana ideas. I will probably still post a few every now and then, but know that they will have to be ones that I’m sure excited to share or fully believe in – I’m not going to post lessons just to post anymore.
Perhaps, my biggest discovery in this reexamination of priorities has been that the fun things, the things I give up my Saturday morning sleep-ins or marathon tv watching for, those are the things that are enriching my life the most. Those are the things that are making memories. Those are the things that allow me to spend more quality time with my friends and family & enable me to write with passion. Because, after all, I may not remember a specific Saturday where I slept until noon, but I will remember waking up early to see a live theatre production with my parents. I’ll remember driving 2 hrs to walk in the Color Run with Jessica. I’ll remember scoping out new flea markets with Dad. And those memories, those are life.
So, right here, right now, I’m having the courage to say no to lazy-comfort and the watered-down passion. No to the vegging out instead of writing, instead of living. No to the mornings, hours, memories that I’ve slept away. I’m saying no, now is not the time to waste. Now is the time to do. I’m saying no so that I can say yes to the experiences. Yes to life. Yes to the dream.
What do you have to say “no” to in order to say yes to something greater?
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